Whom Shall I Fear?

The Holy Week has just passed. It's supposed to be Easter now, but my heart is still carrying the cross of Good Friday.  I thought the persecutions would end at Good Friday, but i was wrong.  Day and night i feared the lashes of the enemy.  I felt like a newly washed cloth afraid to be stained.  I walked with so much fear that any step i take could lead me back to sin, could let me fall from grace.  Oh, i felt so alone in this walk Lord.  But i know you'll never allow me to fall when all else in my life is falling. You'll never forsake me in my weakness. 


You have this song "Whom Shall I Fear" by Lincoln Brewster played in my heart at the right moment to remind me of who You are.


"When all You are is glorious Oh God
Victorious and Strong,
Whom Shall I fear.
When all You are is powerful and true
And good in all You do
Whom shall i fear,
Whom shall i fear.


I know You're with me in the fire
You never leave me in the flame
I know Your thoughts are so much higher
And all Your ways are not my ways."

I Surrender

With the Holy Week fast approaching, my media player is all songs on God's compassion.  I felt the need to get in tune to the spirit of brokenness, repentance and humility, coz my mind is all agog of work, concerns and even sin.  It's as if my mind is stuffed with all sort of things and i just couldn't squeezed in the thought about God anymore.  The kind of feeling where you seem so helpless that you resigned yourself and just stare at a blank wall because you don't know which thing to do first.  I was at my breaking point.  I was asking myself, what is the point of doing all these things - work, home, ministry?  It felt as if i've lost my mojo.  I can' find that single spark to do things with inspiration.  Not even things of God. I have that feeling all week, a sinking feeling.

But then one song hit me.  And it hit hard enough to awaken the single living sense left within me.  

That song  was "Surrender" by Lincoln Brewster.  I realized that i just have to raise my hands and lift it up to the skies and just surrender.  Like a defeated soldier, weary in a battle against one's own pride and sinfulness, I am waving my white flag to the Lord.  I surrender all to you Lord - my worries, my sins, my life, my world.  I'm laying down my rights, Come and take over.  Hold me captive in Your arms.  If I should be in chains, better be enchained in Your love.  I am on my knees, break my heart O God and strip me to the core of my soul.  I surrender all to you.

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I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within

I lay it all down for the sake of you my King

I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my rights

I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life

And I surrender all to you, all to you

And I surrender all to you, all to you

I'm singing You this song, I'm waiting at the cross

And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss

For the sake of knowing You for the glory of Your name

To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain 

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Does God Talk To You?

Early in the morning as i woke up, i blurted out a greeting and a prayer to God.  And during the day when i felt so tired and burdened i just find myself uttering some words to God.  In the evening i end my day with a prayer to God.

God, Jesus, Prayer

Then i realized that in most of my prayers i was the one talking to God.  Sometimes i talk to God in an audible voice. Sometimes it's just in my head, but sometimes my head talks nonchalantly until i just forget that i am talking to God.  You see it is just I - talking - TO - God.  Sometimes i paused for some few moments of silence, allowing God to talk to me, but i just hear the sound of the crickets, my grumbling stomach or the sound of the air conditioner. Maybe i'm just not focused or maybe i just tried too much and over thought about Him.


But have you asked yourself if God ever talked back to you?


I do. A lot of times.  But i also asked God how will you talk to me today Lord? Yes, How? 'Coz I believe that God does talk back to me, every time.  If you expect for white clouds to appear and hear clasps of thunder as you'll hear God's voice in a Scotty Mccreery tone say to you "Hello there". You'll be disappointed 'coz it will not happen. At least not yet.  Or you'll faint in holy horror. (By the way, Scotty is an AI Season 10 finalist with a deep voice).


But God really talks to you in so many ways.  He talks to you through a flower just across your window, or through a dog wagging its tail at you, maybe a beggar outside your door.  Or it could be through a book, a magazine or a newspaper you're reading,


There are countless ways God can speak to you 'coz our God is bigger than the universe He created.  You just have to be in the right disposition.  You have to be "super-extra sensitive"  to His presence, because He has lots of competition nowadays with your attention.  Have an open heart and open mind 'coz you'll never know God might just be speaking right in front of you today disguise as a vagabond, a simple e-mail from a friend, an inspiring message in a billboard on the highway, or it could simply be the hug from your child or spouse.


'And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength.’  Mark 12:30 (NLT)

See Him with your heart, Hear Him with your soul, Feel Him with all your strength and keep Him in your mind.